Your castle

Did you hear my castle fell,

from a tyrant and hero alike.

Each brick took away part of my small kingdom

Safe inside my walls I feared no evil.

To practise love and forgivness without the eyes of the world upon me.

To learn how to love without having to take the credit,

to learn how to give without ever recieving reward.

Loving more with every moment, until my castle fell.

Now you stand in my courtyard but see no love.

you see broken bricks and a scared man

With nothing to his name but the dreams on his back,

I think in that moment you decided that there was nothing here to take

With little disregard for your mess and trouble

You left without looking back, assured in your smugness that I now have even less.

My castle fallen, my walls are broke and that scared man still stands.

But my love and forgivness will always remain here.

Long after your walls fall.

 

Edward Ramsden

 

31/03/2013

A DEAD mans WALK

Oh our stories done?

before it begun?

A fun filled summer arrives without the sun.

No need to glance over your shoulder anymore,

I wont make this walk hard, because its always been yours.

No longer looking back, seem the best road ahead.

Why waste time with the ugly and dead.

This prison no longer the place of your rest,

Where we carry no prisoner to feel the bereft.

You always wanted what I couldn't afford,

A beautiful tree, in a midnight storm.

Oh the light up ahead seems warm and inviting

A much better reason to give up on fighting.

The doors are open but I wont follow you,

I wont make trouble for the beautiful youth.

Ill just keep walking and I've still got quite far.

Away from the talented and beautiful, just like you are

Ill stay up with you and make sure you're alright

If it wasn't as pointless as continuing this fight.

What you gain from our shared time,

Is nothing compared, To the talent and magnetism of the visually compared.

I'm not longer a part of your once exciting existence.

You shrug and say oh well, ill carry on and act like nothing happened.

Because I'm nothing alright and you remind me everyday,

When all my answers were just a walk away.

Edward Ramsden

Wrote this a long time ago

The beautiful and talent will always win over the ugly and unlovable.

I don't care what you beautiful people say, you don't know what its like to be ugly and have the whole world grimace at your attempts at making life or smiling.

Because all beautiful people are exactly the same, just with a different perfect facade.

Complain all you want, your beautiful...Smile!

Dont panic

I wish i could say sorry for the pain,

but you wont have to feel it much longer.

I'm nearing the end of this rope and its knotted,

Like every lump in my throat the moment it started.

Don't be sad for me, I'm fine cant you see.

Why worry, the world is bigger than me.

This note itself, wasn't intended to rhyme

But I lost everything I once called mine.

I know what you say, Everyone and everything is right here

If you stood in my head for 3 seconds, my reasons to you would be clear.

My last request will go unheard, so I wrote in a code no body will know

So after all this is over, you wont ever have to fear about me anymore.

No one ever really dies, I hear some are reborn.

To live my life over and never make friends.

So I can live alone and decide every day if I want to live or not.

You know what? I am sorry.

Sorry i couldn't be the person everyone thought I was inside.

I'm a coward and I had a promise i would make peoples lives better, not worse.

I lost my way and I hate the way I Turned out.

I tried to be a better person and am aware of unlucky some people are

Its another reason to go and let that luck and happiness fall onto someone who deserves it.

Ill make some changes and give what I can,

In the last week of living, I'll prove what I am.

The last gift of my life, is taking it away from everyone.

Thanks for the good times, although it might contradict the end result.

Just wanted you to know that I really did have fun.

Midnight madness

 

 

 

Shes lifes greatest secret,

Magic like we once dreamed of in books.

A freind like the one we always wanted growing up.

Shes the missing particle that completes our understanding of the universe.

Shes the most beauful word in any written language,

Understood by a few, but admired by all others.

Shes the pattern behind every beautiful compilation of pixels on a screen.

Shes the first song I hear and the last words to drift inti my head before I rest.

Shes a small moment between the wind and the rain.

When nature leaves you alone for a breif moment as if to say

"Hey, its ok for now. Just enjoy this chance of weightlessness"

Then plunges you back into streams of water that makes you feel alive.

If only for the moment.

Shes the rainbows end, A beautiful image

 just out of arms reach until she can dissapear

Reforming elsewhere to remove the sadness of others.

Shes lifes greatest secret and the world may not love her as well as it should,

Yet in a small part of the universe, on a rock that wont stop spinning,

Someone will always love her, maybe not in the way that he can ever admit.

But in a way that makes sure she is always loved and thought of.

Even if she never knows it.

 

 

Edward Ramsden

 

3/6/2004

 

Midnight madness, Years go

Run

 

 

Why cant i find my reason to run,

Why must i take part in this endless chase

Theres no finish line, just a differant stopping point for every person

Can i run a but further than you.

you stopped a few feet ago

and i'm not allowed to go back.

Why couldnt we have stopped together

and take on what lies beyond.

I hear its really nice to share with someone

the moment when your both ready to stop running

I know now that id never have to tell you the truth

That for me, stopping in the same place as someone as awesome as you

Is as scary as any nightmare, is more hopless that the sad mans dreams,

Is as unnatural to this world as all of the worldsd hate combined

I will never see the gardens with sun lit rose petals,

Ill never see the smile on your face when you reach real happiness.

Ill only see something I could never be,

Yet everyday I wish i could be.

The cause of your smile and never of your frown.

 

Edward Ramsden

 

21/03/13

 

"Its there written in the playground,

Loves kiss, hate or ignore"

Was it worth it?

Will 4 Months Be The Penultimate Final Stop?
Will every Repeat Read The Same?
Thanks And Goodbye, No Its Not Your Fault,
It’s Me Cant U see I’m Not Yours,
So Ill Walk Away so you can Joke,
And I Wont Be offended By Your Ridicule,
Save me The Tears, Force me The Fears
And Now I’m All Alone In silence,
Hearing Your Words Over And Over…
It’s Over, No More, The End.
Where Did All Decency Go,
Have No one The Compassion For A Viking Funeral,
The last Salute To The Unknown Soldier.
Ill Write Your Number Down And Hide It,
Delete Your Messages On My Phone And Keep The Ones in My head,
And Ill Accept Your Decision Because I Care.
But Inside Its Just Another Reason To Stop…

 

Edward Ramsden

 

For Robyn Fawthrope

Who stole my heart. 

 

11/04/2006

Return

Stars Shining in the Sky of Night
Old Sun Waxes No More On Fair Grass
That in the Winter Scored
From Green To Gold
The Leaves Transform Into Shadowed Memories Of Old
That from the Dawning Winter Pass
Will Bring New Life To Old Wounds
That in The night Glimmer With The Shape Of Seasons To Come.
Never More Seek To heal such wounds
I Speak Of Love Once More
Or Should Thou Say Pain Once More
For is only through Pain That We Make Sense Of Love
And Make Merry Of Its Joy
Only Do We So With The Sword
Of Pass Do we turn To Watch The Torrid River Run
And In Sky Once More We Watch Upon The Stars
And In Our Minds…We Dream Of Forgotten Past
To Sun Caress the Land And Destroy All Dreams Within
And Reality Faces The Last Stand Of Joy


Never To Be returned….

Edward Ramsden

7/12/2003

 

An attempts at nonscence poetry, Edward Lear inspired.